high eq curse

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onto today’s topic: high eq curse ⛓️

eq is short for emotional intelligence, and sometimes i think having too much of it is a curse. i’ve been able to pick up on people’s body language and emotions since very young and this has followed me to the present as well.

being so hyperaware of others’ responses and fretting over the correct thing to say has melded my approach to relationships to be a defensive one unbeknownst to me. 🧱 if i’m having a conversation and i notice the other’s attention has shifted to something happening elsewhere, i’ll immediately switch topics and prompt them to go check out what’s happening there.

it’s easy for me to pick up when someone is uninterested in having a conversation with me, and it isn’t really a good feeling. sometimes, ignorance is indeed bliss, but at the same time i’m probably saving myself from future misunderstanding. 😵‍💫

in other cases, i’ll pick up on tone and energy, and pinpoint the correct thing to say to make someone feel better. i’ll steer our conversation to reflect the other’s interests and excitement, because i do truly enjoy forming connections.

however, the lack of reciprocity is also part of the high eq curse. ⚖️ i’ll think, “well i did x, y & z because i could tell how they were feeling, so why didn’t my emotional state garner the same amount of thought for them?”

not everyone has the same eq, the same way that everyone has different iqs and forms of intelligence. i’ve learned i can’t really expect the exact same degree of emotional awareness from others, as much as it sucks.

that’s not to say you should lower your standards for relationships. i’m just saying not everyone thinks on the same wavelength, so what might be a normal plan of action for me, may not be the same for others.

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