leadership fatigue

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onto today’s topic: leadership fatigue 👑 

in every school project, without fail, i would always be the one to step up and lead the group dynamic.

when making plans with friends or events, i would always be the one hashing out details and sending out confirmations. i always take up the responsibility of delegating tasks, blocking time and moving decisions along. i’ve found that i somehow naturally fall into this role. maybe because i appreciate more urgency? maybe because i enjoy taking action? 🎯 

i’ve never really understood how others are satisfied just following along with the group without steering any conversation or decision making. i relish in the feeling when my ideas come into fruition, and the only way that’s possible is when i’m actively contributing my opinions and advocating for them.

still, leadership is a mental load. 😵 

it gets kind of tiring hearing, “what should we do?” repeatedly.

i don’t know, what do you think we should do?

i enjoy taking on the leadership role but i don’t always want to be the one driving everything. i actually really appreciate it when i have plans to hang out with someone and they have a plan they’re excited to fulfill together or are suggesting dates/times.

it takes off a huge mental load that i don’t need to always take on, especially in a social setting. for work-related things, i still want that ownership but it feels nice to let it go with friends. 🫂 

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