what drains my energy?

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onto today’s topic: what drains my energy? ⚡️

i love talking to people and hanging out with my friends and family, but i most definitely have a clear social battery.

it gets completely drained when i have no time to reconnect with myself. i can feel it when my energy levels start to drop drastically after being in social environments for too long. i become quieter, less engaged and just want to escape.

i value alone time a lot, and it’s funny because in my childhood this was something i hated the most. 😬

i’m clearly an introvert, right? well, my first impressions on others say otherwise nearly 100% of the time. i have absolutely no problem joining a conversation or putting events together. in fact, i thrive in social settings and adore cracking jokes with friends.

however, spending time with myself is equally important to me. i’m able to reflect, relax my mind and blast my precise music taste into my ears.

if i were to put this extrovertism-introvertism dynamic into a visual perspective, i’d say that my energy capacity is like a syringe. 💉 in the beginning, the syringe is filled up, but as my social time increases, both the energy and it’s capacity decreases — the syringe is pushed with nothing blocking the end.

once i spend time with myself, my energy capacity is back to its max, and i’m at peace; however, the energy itself isn’t completely full — the syringe is pulled, but not much energy was sucked into it.

finally, once i go have conversations and surround myself with people, it’s like my full energy is injected back into me (with the capacity already being reset to maximum), and the process repeats. of course, i also get energized by being alone, but that full capacity is only ever met when i’m around the people i love.

it’s a pretty complicated answer, but staying in a social scene for too long drains my energy as well as its capacity. at the same time, it’s also often the only thing that completely restores my energy. 🧘‍♀️

truly, it’s the life of an ambivert.

what are you? an extrovert? introvert? ambivert? none of the above? lmk!

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